This was yesterday. Their last moments of freedom, carefreeness and empty hours...hours to fill or throw into the void—expendable and limitless.
I've written about this before, the back to school ritual. How I always look forward to business as usual after months of kids and swimming pools and lunches...but this year I don't know. Things are going on in my life that fill me with a deep sense of regret, sadness even. Another summer that will never again return. Another step towards that inevitable edge. When your kids are born it feels like those days will never end, like their eyes will always widen anytime they see you, the hero of their microcosmic universe. You don't sense the limits, you don't fear the edges that surround you in the distance. All you know is infinite love, regardless of worth or circumstances. So you run, take it all for granted and forget how blessed you are.
Rivers never flow away from the sea. It's always forward. Always forward.
No turning back.