A Butterfly Effect | Part III - Celebrations

In chaos theory, the sensitive dependence on initial conditions in which a small change in one state of a deterministic nonlinear system can result in large differences in a later state.

There's a moment when it hits us, the actual loss. And it can take awhile because the reality of never seeing someone again is hard to accept. It's the vertigo of infinity... Unknown parameters you know? But when it finally does it's like a small part of our world collapses in on itself and we're often left standing there, wondering what it all means.

Chaotic systems are a thing of beauty because they transcend what we expect of life. They feed on the motion of it, on its collisions and global anarchy, their trajectories unpredictable. Seeing so many people come together, of so many diverse origins—family, friends, neighbours new and old... All of us aware that we know each other through one single person, because of one single wing fluttering in the chaos; how powerful is that

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During the service Father Jack, her friend of fifty years, related his last story of her. She was staying at her son's house and had celebrated her youngest grandson's First Communion—she'd been saying for weeks how she needed to hold on long enough to see it through. Father Jack came over after the ceremony to perform last rites as she had asked. Control. always. Then they ate cake. As he was leaving she called back and said: "Fifty years... That's a pretty good run you and I." And then added "Well, see you at the funeral!"

Everyone laughed. So did I of course.
But that's when it hit me.

Some people see a grand design and perhaps it is indeed the root of it all. But I don't mind embracing randomness and simply believing in something that ultimately binds all of us in some way, with no destination other than the people we choose to travel with. 

Butterflies, forever changing the course of this universe.


PREPARATIONS



SERVICE



THE BACKYARD, THE PARTY. AS ALWAYS.



LEAVING


Montreal, twelve hours before.


Shot with the X100T


Fuji walk+90mm Incursion (Fujinon XF 90mm f2R pre-production images)

The yearly gathering of Fuji shooters took place last Sunday: the Montreal Fuji Photo Walk. Huge turnout this year—which is impressive considering last year’s event had already been a success and the early morning weather was… Let’s say iffy.

The undisputed star of the show was the new baby (literally), the X-T10. Fujifilm Canada had a bunch of them on hand for folks to try out, along with all the recent lenses, zooms and primes. We had drinks the night before where I got to play with it briefly and while it’s preliminary, I can say this: it felt completely natural. Best compliment I can give it. Smaller than the X-T1 of course but I immediately fell into it, all the buttons were where I expected them to be and there was no “new body shock”—which I have to admit was a pleasant surprise. Oh and that new autofocus stuff… Impressive. Can’t wait to try this on the X-T1.

But I was personally most looking forward to trying out the upcoming XF 90mm f2R. We played with it Saturday night—Ben Von Wong having a blast shooting much too intimate beer-infused close-ups of everyone that I hope will never see the light of day (!)—but the following morning I brought my X-T1 for The Walk and Billy set me up with one. These are all pre-production units at this point but man… I’m having trouble seeing how it could be improved. Yet another stellar lens for the X-Series.

There’s no OIS, for the same reasons it was left out of the new 16mm: image quality, size considerations etc. Now, at 90mm (135mm equivalent) you kind of expect it nowadays and it’s the one point I was hesitant about. But it balances extremely well on-camera—at least on the X-T1—so I didn’t feel it was that much of an issue. I had no trouble keeping it steady. It may be a different story in low-light situations but that’ll be something to test in the eventual review. In terms of rendering and sharpness: wow. XF 56mm kind of wow so… Right up there.

Check out my buddy Bert Stephani’s video review for more info:

Huge thanks to everyone at Fujifilm Canada for making this all happen: Jerry Julien, Helen Layter and of course Billy Luong. And thanks to everyone who came to shoot the breeze or shake hands… Always a blast to meet everyone at these events; Montreal is becoming quite the nice little Fuji community. Speaking of which: FujiTuesday is coming to our fair city. Rob Zeigler is bringing the concept here from Toronto and I’ll be at the first meetup, probably on June 16 (to be confirmed); I’ll keep you posted on that.

Later


Shot with the X-T1 and Fujinon XF 90mm f2R (pre-production unit)


MONOCHROME

COLOUR

A Butterfly Effect | Part II - These Small Things Will Define Us.


Shot with the X100T


A Butterfly Effect | Part I - Border Crossing.

Stanstead border station:
- “Are those your kids?”
- “Yes.”
- “What’s the purpose of your trip?”
- “Well, a funeral actually…”

We drive the long drive, the one we know by heart—up the White Mountains and down again, winding through state after state. My eyes are tired and Cynthia takes the wheel for an hour. It’ll be late when we arrive…
These days everything always feels much too late.


Shot with the X100T