Funk. Thanksgiving.

With blogs it's easy to get caught up in self-promotion: "I shot this for client X!" "I'm releasing project Y!" "It's all wonderful! Look at me I'm on top of the world!"...

Sometimes I am. Most of the time things are good and moving along.
But right now I'm in a funk.

I'm beginning to realize it's a seasonal thing because I remember feeling this same way last year after returning from Europe, right around this time. It's probably compounded by the end of the Subterraneans project and the void left behind by any endeavour into which you've poured so much energy. Suddenly it's out there and this universe you've inhabited for months on end is now empty. It's an odd transition, both exciting and debilitating; like you need to now rewire yourself. It's not easy or obvious to do.

So for the past week or so I've been going through the motions. I could keep this to myself and post about the last jobs I did but frankly, I just don't feel like it. The reality of creative work is that it's 1) tied to emotions and 2) has highs and lows. Doesn't matter how much time you've spent on higher ground, eventually you'll come back down to earth. Eventually, you'll reassess and question and wonder. None of us are exempt of these feelings, of these ebbs and flows...not a single one of us, believe me. And I happen to think it's just as important to share.

I'm writing all of this while listening to Jefferson Airplane's After Bathing at Baxter's—I used to own this on a battered second-hand vinyl and had completely forgotten about the album until Apple Music suggested it. The song Rejoyce (yes, that's the spelling) is a masterpiece. Boy is that taking me back.

Our son Jacob is twelve today, can you believe it? God, I can't. We're going to the restaurant tonight to celebrate. Then this weekend we're headed for the country and I'm very much looking forward to refuelling; to walks on dirt roads and the silence of the fields.

To Thanksgiving and remembering where and who we are.


Speaking of post-project: I want to thank everyone who's purchased These Kings. These Subterraneans so far. It seems to be resonating in a way that's actually very touching to witness. I'm going to extend the launch sale until October 31st to coincide with the coupon code I gave away on the latest episode of the We Shoot Fuji podcast, hosted by Scott Bourne and Marco Larousse. Had a fun time with those guys, talking about photography and creativity in general. And that promo code is in the show notes I just linked to btw—just sayin' ;)

I'm leaving you with a few random attempts at shaking off the doldrums.
Happy (Canadian) Thanksgiving guys—see you on the other side.


Present Imperfect

An evening out with an old friend, remembering who we where: the heroes, the fiends, the reckless fools; realizing everything's changed but it’s all the same. On the drive back I put on Beach House, Then I switch to Joy Division—yeah...all the same...definitely.

Have a great weekend all.

Shot with the X100T

2015 Global Photo Walk | Montreal

Photo walks always strike me as odd creatures: a gathering around an activity that’s mostly rather private and—let’s face it— doesn’t usually involve moving around with a massive posse. It’s always strange to suddenly become part of a slow, lumbering, camera-carrying meta-beast. But of course it’s about community and meeting others who share the same passion, either as a hobby or a job—because none of that matters; we’re ALL photographers.

This year’s 500px Global Photo Walk was sponsored by Fujifilm and the Montreal chapter was organized by Alexandre Trudeau-Dion who did a great job. The delightful Valérie Racine of Photo Life/Photo Solution was there representing the magazine, lots of folks from the local camera clubs and thriving Fuji community. Always fun to see familiar faces and get a chance to catch up with everyone.

Still, beyond the talking and the socializing it’s all about imagery right? So here’s some of my output for the day. Just one big chronological series. Oh and that last photo? Yeah…don’t shoot and drive kids.

All images shot with the X100T

New book & more: These kings. These subterraneans.

1EYE, ROAMING was a necessary first publication, for many reasons. It frames the origins of a new journey, my first tentative steps with the X-series and the beginnings of a storytelling approach. It's an adaptation of material that was important to me and as such it made sense for it to be gathered and presented the way it was. First stone. Stretching the canvas. But even as I was working on it, even on the very day of its release I knew: 1EYE, ROAMING wasn't about where I was—it was about where I'd been. 

The next project would be profoundly different.

For as long as I can remember, I wanted to create something that would blend it all: photography, words, music. Maybe with a few sketches thrown in. A work I could point to and say: look, that's me, for whatever it's worth. But I kept procrastinating, unsure of the direction or form it should take.

When I started giving conferences a couple of years ago it strangely began paving the way for this type of work to finally happen, by allowing me to explore different avenues for presenting ideas, forcing reflections I may not otherwise have spent much time on. Then at some point I also started writing songs again; I didn't expect to release anything (music and I have a troubled history) but I badly needed the outlet. Slowly, through it all, I began imagining more.

Over the holidays I read Dan Winter's life changing Road to Seeing and wrote a post entitled Go Deep, my first one of 2015. In retrospect, this is the moment when it all suddenly made sense: why not? Why not an explosion? Why not a weird composite object to scream or whisper it all in a single uninterrupted stream of consciousness? That post, almost a New Year's became the plan, the guiding light.

 Cue these kings. these subterraneans.

Here's an excerpt from the project page—it's the best explanation I've come up with so far:

Let’s say we’re having a beer. It’s a nice, cool summer evening and we’re sitting in some hip café, shooting the breeze, going from one topic to the next. Now let’s imagine that while we’re having this conversation, you somehow get injected inside my head—like Fantastic Voyage or Innerspace you know? Yeah, old movies...whatever...but though the psyche instead of the blood stream. Images are fading in and out, seemingly random and yet somehow connected. There’s music playing, enveloping the landscape, voices slightly out of range. All the while you can still hear me, murmuring ideas about photography...sometimes going into more personal subjects.

That’s what I had in mind with this. It’s a slice of my brain circa 2015, a project meant to share thoughts and emotions through words, images and music. A raw, disjointed and slightly oneiric journey that I hope will pull you in for the ride.


I know. You're probably thinking "But...what is it exactly?"
It's a mixed media project—which is a fancy way of saying it's not just a book: it's a photography book AND a music album. The book is in PDF format (landscape), 120 pages, 25 colour photographs, 24 monochromes. Drawings, lyrics, short essays and anecdotes. The album features 8 songs in 256 kbps AAC (m4a). All of this available in a single digital download. 

Personal projects can be very volatile, as we go from certainty to doubt and back again. But sometimes they assert themselves out of a sheer sense of urgency. This has been a long and arduous journey for me and I've rarely been this absorbed, at times paralyzed by a project. I also believe it's probably my most personal effort to date, leaving me—to be perfectly honest— in a very vulnerable state. Releasing this feels a lot like placing my head on a chopping block and hoping for the best, damn the consequences. Because it's also a snapshot—this IS where I am, today. WHO I am. It's not a compilation or a look back, there's no distance this time around: it's here and now. Open heart surgery.

I'm very proud to say this is also the first release under KAGE EDITIONS, a new umbrella we'll be using for personal projects.

For the next two weeks (until October 8th) these kings. these subterraneans | Mixed Media Edition (book+music) is available at a special introductory price of $9.99 CAD. For more info and previews please visit the project page here.

I did this for myself. We always do. But I'm hoping this strange object will succeed in touching some of you as well, somehow.

These kings. These subterraneans. | mixed media edition
9.99 12.99

This is the complete digital project which includes both the music album and book with full text, photographs and illustrations.
BOOK: PDF format (landscape), 120 pages. 25 colour photographs, 24 monochromes.
ALBUM: 8 songs, 256 kbps AAC (m4a), running time 34 minutes.


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Studies for a Backlit Screen I

I wanted to make something you could slip in and out of. You could pay attention or you could choose not to be distracted by it if you wanted to do something while it was on.
— Brian Eno (on ambient music)

Shot with the X-T1 and XF 60mm f/2.4 R